Disturbing Notes II
I. Children
I’ve always wondered if what we describe as being “human” is innate or original and unique to our species. The more I look at animal behaviour, the less I believe there is anything unique about us. Especially when I study the behaviour of animals that live with people or are exposed to humans. Like the fascinating case of Koko the gorilla who can communicate in sign language. Or talking parrots and crows. Cats and dogs also. These animals seem to be able to pick up or mimic things which we would consider to be “human.” Then opposite to that are the fascinating cases of feral children. Especially the children who are disconnected from other humans below the age of 5 or so.
I’ve been fascinated with the feral children phenomenon for a long time. One of the first things I read about this subject was a book I can’t remember the title of since I read it over a decade ago. The book wasn’t about feral children. It was a book on mysticism and the ancient quest for the first human language. The book said that for a very long time people believed that Hebrew was the divine and first human language. At least in Europe. The book told of the only known case of when children were used to conduct an experiment to see if Hebrew was a divine language. What happened was a real king – I can’t recall what country he ruled – got into an argument with a few religious people who claimed that Hebrew was the Original human language. But this king believed that the language of his people was the Original human tongue. I want to say that the king believed Greek was the first human language, but I don’t think I’m recalling it right. So the king set out to prove himself right by conducting an actual experiment using real children. What the king did was take very young children of peasants away from their parents and he raised them up isolated from all human language. He had instructed the nurses who would care for these children to never ever utter a single word to them. The king hypothesized that since his people’s language was the first and original language, then these children isolated from all human language will grow up naturally speaking his people’s language and not Hebrew. Strangely the children did grow up to spontaneously speak a language, but it was neither Hebrew or the language of the king. It was Phrygian of all things! I’m not really sure I can believe this historical incident.
I watched a documentary on feral children and the several scientists in the doc said that there is a short window of opportunity for a human child to acquire language which is between the moment of birth to around the age of 6. This is because the language center in the child’s head is barely developing, and its synaptic networks forming. So whatever language or means of communication it is exposed to during those crucial years is what the child ends up speaking and using. After the threshold age, a human becomes incapable of learning language. The longer this child is isolated from human contact or language, the less likely the child will use, learn, and comprehend language. Not to mention the less “human” in Nature and behaviour they will become. The doc spent a lot of time on a particular feral child sometimes called the Dog Girl who is from Russia or one of those countries near Russia. She was in her teens when they found her, so she was well past the threshold to be humanized. Since she was raised by dogs, she even walked on all four like one, slept on the ground like one, and ate like one. The only thing human about the unfortunate girl was her human body. Otherwise she was very, “not-human-like,” is a nice way to put it.
After many years of thinking about this subject, and how even our so called “humanness” is an acquired mode of behaviour, I learned to see and appreciate Culture more. I use ‘Culture’ in an Eastern sense and a European sense. I didn’t think there was a difference until I was having a conversation with a friend of mine once. He was a normal White America. I brought up the topic of culture and to continue our conversation , my friend jumps on the subject and said in a deep and thoughtful way: “You know, I never liked the opera. I mean no offense to you. I just never got into it. The plot is boring, the singing is obnoxious and in a different language, and the audience are usually senior citizens.” I didn’t have the heart to argue with my friend or inform him that he was a retard, so I just nodded my head, and went along with the opera tangent. But in my mind to myself I was like: “What the fuck. I said Culture and he talks about opera. Are we talking the same language?’
Culture is any social meme -idea, act, behaviour, music, etc – which you Cultivate; you can see the same root word in those two words. This correlation between Culture and Cultivation of plants may be “universal.” In Khmer we have an indigenous term [sans Pali or Sanskrit] meaning a people’s Culture, Customs, and Ways which is “T’nam T’lop,” which is pronounced here as “Tuh-nee-uhm Tuh-lawp.” If you take those two words apart from each other and pronounce them as they are spelt in Khmer, then you can decipher the essence of what a Culture is in this oriental world-view. The word T’nam [Tuh-nam] means Plant, Vegetation, and edible crops you grow and cultivate on a farm. It doesn’t mean any old plant or bush, it strictly means cultivated and grown produce that people eat like tomatoes and herbs. T’lop [Tlawp] is the word for Habit, or an act one is acCUSTOM to doing over and over again, or to have done something before. Like if I say: “I t’lop go to Mexico,” it means that I have been to Mexico before and I imply that I might go again. Or the idiom “Tlop Dai [hand]” means a habit you Do which is hard to break, literally meaning a Habit of the Hand. I would translate that term as “Habitual Cultivation,” or “Cultivated Habit,” in English. When one person does something over and over again, it is called a Habit. When two or more people do the same thing together over and over again it is called a Culture, Custom, or Way. But this is how I understand the word coming from my cultural background. I honestly don’t know what the word “culture” means in American English as it is used by a cultureless breed of White people here. For example if I study every day at school for an hour before lunch, it is a personal or private Habit of mine which I just cultivate or am in the habit of doing. But if all of my Asian friends also studies at the same time everyday, and we do it all together in the same place, then it is a Culture a group of students Share. So that’s what a Culture is when I use the word. This then would include such things as dance style, music style, art style, structural architecture, traditional wardrobe, dialect of language, etc. The key point here is a Sharing of acts and behaviour. That Sharing together of habitual cultivation of acts and behaviour over time induces a strong group identification in each group member, and it induces cohesion and solidarity. Think the military. You collect the most random young people from all walks of life who have nothing in common, force them to share a habitually cultivated routine for a few months, and they come out Cultured, structured, Disciplined, with a group identity, group solidarity, and out in the battlefield, they are prepared to fight and die for each other.
This is where things like sasana, rites, rituals, ceremonies, observances, and Traditions in a Culture comes into important play. Growing up as a child my aunt-mom when she tucked me in at night would teach me a simple, but repetitive little rite before going to bed. She’d teach me to pray to my dead blood grandfather – her father – by calling his name and asking him to follow me and keep me safe and bless me with peace and happiness. After I said my prayer, she’d remind me that our spirit doesn’t die, and that our ancestors are always with us, watching over us. I also was taught the cultural upper class habit of clasping my hands to my aunt-mom every morning when she dropped me off at school to ask her for permission to leave her to go to class, and I wasn’t allowed to leave the car until she dismissed me with permission. These are little rites, but they are cultivated habitually over and over, year after year. Not only in and by me due to my upbringings, but also in every other child of my culture and class. Such that it becomes a Cultural practice of a people, which has been observed and practiced for many centuries. This simple rites breeds in you the knowing of respect for your ancestors and the inner – empathic – understanding of what Honour is and means. After doing that morning rite of properly asking for permission to leave for school with clasped hands from grade school to junior high, I know what Honour and honouring your mother and parents means inside. Any soldier who has been habitually cultivating that military life knows – from cultivated experience – what Honour and respect means. The minute an American open his mouth and questions in a smart ass way what Honour means and what the value of respect is, he gives his cultureless and rootless Nature and upbringings away.
Like any farmer will tell you, it is the Fruit which comes out of one’s hard labour that speaks and is a testimony for the value and worth of the labour wrought. If a farmer brings to his farmer’s market huge and healthy fruits and vegetables, as a neighbor farmer who wants to grow the same kind of fruits and vegetables you ask him what he did to grow such. Then you take the technique he shared with you and duplicate it. Or if you ate a great tasting dish at a friend’s house and you want to learn to cook the same dinner with the same great taste, you ask your friend for her secret family recipe. In Pali we have a word for that sharing of technique or secret recipe, it’s is: Sasana. Sasana is basically a methodology shared to you by someone in order that you causally manifest an end result. Do you like the dinner I cooked? If so here are the step by step methods and ingredients I use. If you follow it, you will end up with the same end results.
So just like we can say that a soldier in the military is the end result of his military culture and training, we can say that you and I and our children we may have or will have are products and the end result of a culture shared by a group of people [folk, family]. Now, just like we look at and evaluate fruits and vegetables at a farmer’s market, we look at me and you, or pick a handful of people from different places around the world. Then ask yourself what type of person you want to be, and more importantly, what kind of children/humans, do you wish to populate your country with in future.
Do you want yourself and children to be like the generic White Hubris American Mundane? Like them who are sell outs. Who uprooted themselves and sold out their ancestral culture for the faux culture of Consumerism, and democratic or republican policies? What do these Homo Hubris actually live for. Think about it. I can say I live for a big family. Meaning how I act and live goes to benefit my family. Meaning that my efforts ultimately goes to benefit my family. Meaning that everything I do, goes to benefit my family and friends. I am not independent of my family. Now you look at these White Hubris American Mundanes who stress that they are “individuals,” free from religion, culture, social restraint, who have no real family. Who are they living out their human lives for? For employers, for banks, for car lots, for politicians. In essence for people out to make a lot of money and power off of them. The more individualized you are, and the less of a people or family you have to live for, the more dependent you are on the fat cats for handouts. Do you want your children like them? Cuz if you do, all you have to do is be liberal and let your kids just be “raised” like they were raised. If you don’t want your children like them, then you’re gunna have to be a little more conservative and traditionalistic with your ancestral Culture, heritage, folk or family identity, etc. But it goes beyond just having kids. A nation or civilization is nothing more than the collective habitual way of life a mass of people share. So it is actually about how your country, nation, or civilization will be like far in the future. Can you see that far? And then can you plan ahead and begin to causally act to produce end results that far? The average mundane human can’t, and I doubt they care either.
It’s like the old story of the ant and grasshopper we’ve all heard. Unfortunately the story is misunderstood, or people don’t get the deeper meaning. You have ant busy working, and a grasshopper hanging around and eating leaves. That grasshopper will mate and the female grasshopper will lay her eggs in the ground. Then she dies. The ants work themselves until they die. Both the grasshopper and the ants will meet the same end fate: death. But they each lived their lives for something different. The ants lived their lived to build up their nest or colony for their Unborn. The grasshopper lived for himself. The difference is that the progeny of the ants will inherit a big colony and a means to a prosperous life. Whereas the grasshopper children will come out individualized with nothing. You look at any given nation and you’ll see these same two ant and grasshopper culture. The majority of a population are the ignorant grasshoppers, who are born poor, wage earners, dependent on a system. The few are the ant who inherit what their family left for them. These usually end up running the system and corporations. It’s not about money. It’s about the Quality of life. Or Dukkha as we call it in Buddhism. It is your duty as a Buddhist to try to relieve the Dukkha of your family and kin. To try and some how give your family and sangha a peaceful life without much worry. It all goes back to Culture and Traditionalism or Conservatism if you understand it all. Your children are borne literally blank slated, even without their humanness. These things are learned and acquired by them following and mimicking your acts and examples. Culture is the medium by which our humanness, language, worldview, mode of bahaviour, are cultivated in the next generation. In life – in any race and country – there are Noble high quality humans, and there are the many generic common peasantry. Which type our own children will be depends on us and the culture we instill in them or lack thereof.
II. Prisons
I think prison is a place where we hide and dismiss what Jung calls the Shadow self. We know that we are human, and we know that people in prison are human, but it becomes very hard for many of us to admit that what prison folk have done is human. We fear such Shadow nature enough to lock them up in prisons: out of sight, out of mind. Or as they say in Spanish: Ojos que no ven, Corazon que no siente; what the eyes do not see, the heart-mind/chitta does not feel. We fear that Shadow nature enough to lock it up in hell in our myths and religious beliefs. If not fear, then we are at least in denial of such Shadow aspect of our human Nature.
War is another place to see this Shadow nature. Not the silly romantic idealisms pushed by people who have never seen a war or experienced a war physically. But real war out in the battlefield. The visuals of dead bodies, the act of slaughtering people, the women raped, the people uprooted from their land and homes, the orphaned children crying and dying, the helplessness of innocent lives caught up in a war they did not want. I have never seen or experienced a war directly, but my family has been through a genocidal revolution. It’s not pretty, heroic, or romantics. My grandmother is tough. While fleeing the country during the revolution to Thailand, she experienced the full effect of the revolution. She and her older children has see the many corpses, the decomposed bodies, the fields of bones, the slaughtering of their own family members. I consider that a valuable experience. So I once asked my grandmother what her impression of humans were based on what she had seen during that revolution. She shook her head and just said: “It’s as if they [the Khmer Rouge] weren’t human, but animals.” She then added: “Which is why the ancestors admonished us to know Sasana, any Sasana, and to believe in God and Metta. Because even though we as humans can commit such deplorable acts, we as humans also have a softer, more caring nature as well.”
The idea is to not deny or dismiss that Shadow nature of our humanness, but to understand it. And you can’t understand something without a direct experience. That Shadow self must somehow be experienced, where that we come to realize – empathically – that we each have both a Light side and a Shadow side. The trick then is to integrate the Light and the Shadow, and fade them into Grey. Integration doesn’t mean to beat your wife with your left hand and give to charity with your right. It means to merge the two into one new holistic wholeness, samma, wholesome Nature.
This subject of denial of the Shadow self reminds me of the Jewish mythos regarding YHVH. There was a point in time when God [yhvh] vowed that he would never be wrathful to his people again. And so God removed that wrathful part of himself, and he cast that wrathful part down into the dark sea of the earth. That wrathful part was called Leviathan. Levi meaning ‘Curved’ or ‘crooked’ as in a Curved shepherds staff; Than meaning serpent or dragon. I’ve always found it funny how these mundane satanists act like the Jew God when they deny and dismiss their Shadow nature. When they ethically bleet out things like: “A true satanists isn’t racist. Racism is wrong!” And things of that sort. They try hard to dismiss that unethical or socially unacceptable aspects of human nature, rather than come to intimately understand that nature. And in doing so, they become a house divided, where they themselves – as a being of human nature – are divided, cleaved, halved. And you look closely at who is dictating what is socially ethical and socially acceptable which they dismiss. It’s the generic unthinking mass that simply fears such Shadow nature. We fear that which we do not understand. Locking what we don’t understand up in a prison or whatever does not lead to a gnosis or understanding. Neither does denying and dismissing such Shadow nature. But again, this has nothing to do with picking sides. It has to do with being mature enough to understand our own human nature in a wholistic and objective manner so that we can integrate ourselves into a Whole person sans the childish denial, and sans the idealistic or ideological blinders.
III. ONA
I think it was common practice in the past during phase 2 of fayen for different Satanic organizations to liberally borrow from ONA to add to their institutions. And then we have some ONA groups which took what they needed of ONA and then slowly drifted away from ONA to be their own thing. Usually so the founder can be their own grandmaster with their own following. And there is nothing wrong with this, if we really understand the meaning of the word “influence” and “inspire.”
When the WSA352 came into the scene we were entirely ignorant of how past ONA influenced groups did things. So we ended up doing the entire opposite. Instead of beefing up the Satanism and weird demon mythos, we fades that out and just talked about Buddhism and other forms of Oriental mysticism. Instead of trying to separate from ONA, we tried to get closer in different ways. One way was over the years we dismantled our WSA “memeplex” into all of its itty-bitty memes, and then very slowly, gradually grafted each of those memes into the ONA. So if anybody ever wondered what ever happened to WSA’s stuff and why all we talk about is ONA, it’s because the two have long since been merged. I’ll give a quick example of how I dismantle a WSA meme and graft it into the ONA.
For instance in the old days WSA had something called Opus Vrilis which is our collection of writings. The idea or concept behind Opus Vrilis originally was to get all of our friends 3 years ago to each add their own thoughts to Opus Vrilis in such a way where that “our” Satanism Progress as a peer based project. So instead of consuming a Satanism some other person created, we as peers produce a Satanism we need and want. Unfortunately the peer based idea didn’t work for Opus Vrilis because nobody wanted to write or produce ideas. They were more willing to consume ideas. So what we did was we took that same peer based development meme and we silently grafted it into the ONA. Which was easy to do because DM & RM in the old days left instructions in their old writings that the ONA needs to evolve and be developed. All we did was peg our peer group memes onto that imperative.
So now instead of just one Anton Long as the sole executive producer of ONA memes, we each as fellows of the ONA help produce, develop, and evolve the ONA. This peer based approach has its pros and cons. A pro is that with all of us building onto the ONA, we ween ourselves off of a reliance on Anton Long’s ideas and leadership. This fixes a big problem: the problem of people saying shit like: “Oh David Myatt has gone to better things, he left ONA, therefore its dead.” Those mundane satanists can have a satanism without a leader, but they won’t allow us to have an ONA without a leader, even when AL has over and over again for the past 3 years stated that ONA is now peer based. If it is peer based, who the hell cares if one person of many [DM] left or not? Like the Gods said in a video: “Bury the man, and continue the plan.” Not that they have any real proof to support their assertions that DM has left. Which I think is funny. All they have are their personal extrapolations based on internet chatter. No mundane satanist who asserts that DM has left ONA actually has any real communication connection with DM, or RM, or anybody in their ‘inner circle.” There are plenty of us who have been communicating with the Usual Suspects for at least 5 years like the Temple of THEM, those balobians who talk to RM, etc.
The important concept to keep in mind is that if we as an ONA are dependent on one person [DM] or whoever to give us our ideas and our ONA, then when DM passes away, then yes, ONA will be dead. It boggles my mind how Science as an institution and memeplex can stay in tact since the 1600′s and also evolve and remain rational without a leader, and how living cultures the world over can exist in tact memetically for thousands of years without a sole meme provider, but yet this same concept cannot apply to ONA? At least in the minds of these mundanes. How is it that Muhammad was able to presence Islam, die, and the culture, tradition, customs, and way of life, remain alive and in tact after he is long dead? Islamic culture exists today independent of the person Muhammad, who doesn’t even exist anymore. How does that work?! Can we figure this shit out so we can make it work for ONA? How is it that science today is independent of the olden day Royal Society which was the first institution of science, but ONA can’t be independent of its original nexion? How is it that those mundanes’ satanism can have no leader, but ONA can’t?
So lets look at this issue more closer, cuz it bugs me to bits. You got these fucktard mundane satanists who in their early teens came to know of satanism from The Satanic Bible of Anton LaVey’s. They liked what they read which was created by LaVey. They identified themselves as satanists. Then as they get older, they proceed to steal that satanism which they did not invent themselves and they dismiss LaVey. Then you see them adding their own ideas into their stolen satanism, you see them trying to make their own satanic churches, they own true satanisms, and so forth.
Has any person who identifies themselves as ONA ever done that shit? Has any ONA person ever stolen ONA from DM or even from RM? NO. Do we add our own ideas into the mix? Yes, but after the original creators of the ONA gave the thumbs up. In fact we do the whole opposite to our own aeonic detriment. We still sentimentally look toward AL and the Shropshire crew to give us our ONA. None of those mundane satanists invented their satanism. They were consumers of a commercialized satanism sold by Avon of all book publishers which also sell fat bitch romance novels. Nobody in ONA outside of DM invented our ONA either. But we give credit to where it should be, and we keep ONA associated with its founder. DM will say what he needs to say in public, and those mundanes will believe what they read n public. But those of us on the actual inside know things differently. How is it that these mundane fucks can steal Satanism from LaVey, make their satanism leaderless, but they can’t allow ONA the same line of development where we actually are doing things in the Legit manner and getting DM/AL to make ONA into a peer based leaderless institution. Do we have to do shit in a dishonourable way like them and steal ONA from its maker for it to be Legit in their dumb fuck eyes?
The con to having a peer based institution is that if there are no safety guards put into place, then things can get diluted and watered down into stupidity. For example Science has safety guards in place which makes sure science stays rational. Some of these safety guards is the use of the scientific method, which basically says that if you want your shit to be science, it’s first gotta be tested and then it must be replicable by others. You have the peer review process where the old timers who are respected in the scientific community looks over and gives you their critique of your theories and experimentation and conclusions. This way not any insane person with an over active imagination can introduce his beliefs and speculations as valid science.
The ONA as a peer based institution must have the same safety guards. It already does. We have the 5 Core Principles which gives us five simple things that makes ONA genuinely ONA. Those are 5 big landmarks which defines the psychological territory of ONA. What happens if you cross the defined boundaries? You’re no longer in the territory. It’s simple. We have the Sinister Dialectics, which essentially keeps retarded ONA people from making ONA into a socially – mundanely – acceptable institution, like those dummies in mundane satanism is trying to make their satanism. They work hard at trying to make their LaVey rip off satanism socially acceptable by the generic average idiot [fellow citizen] of their society so their rip off shit is Legit or something. Fuck the generic public and their opinions or acceptance. Be above that generic mass. Don’t seek to be of it. The Seven Fold Way is the measuring stick of ONA. The Traditions, Rites, Ceremonies, Mythos, established in the Black Book of Satan and Naos are the Foundation of what ONA is. What do you do with a Foundation? After a construction team build a foundation, what the hell do you do with the shit? You fucking Build shit on top of it: the actual Structure. The foundation has been set by DM and you/we build our respective Temples and Cathedrals or Pagodas on top of it. That Traditional foundation stays in place, but add to it. Like the 16th Satanic Point said once: “Strive not only forwards, but upwards for greatness lies in the highest.” On a fundamental level ONA will always be a dark pagan and Traditional Satanism institution. Traditional as in there has been established a set of traditions. Satanism according to the ONA has different extrapolations. You have what is expounded in the old Ms., “What Satanism Is,” you have the spiritual tangent where Satan is the name given to a real being. You have the symbolic Satanism as expounded by the “Geryne of Satan.” Then you have my personal favourite where the word Satanist in ONA is another way to say an anti-Jew, since Satan is the enemy of the Jew or their God. Most outsider mundanes don’t know that the ONA word “Magian” is a term for Jews and their Jew memes, religions, political ideologies, world view, way of life, etc.
For the past three years what I have personally been doing is migrating DM concepts and ideas from his Numinous Way, and the Traditionalist stuff from Reichsfolk over into ONA, to make ONA more Myattian. Others are doing this too such as AL, where you see AL use Myattian terms like “Pathei-Mathos.” And now you have things like the concept of the Sinisterly-Numinous, which is the integrated synthesis or Balance of the Sinister [dark/primal/Shadow] with the Numinous [light/divine].
As the years pass by, I would like to see the ONA develop into a means and medium of manifesting in the West a more Natural, Wholistic, way of Life based on Traditionalism, our respective Cultures, Clan family structures, Conservatism, ancestral pathei-mathos, and living aural traditions. So that the next generation in the West can have a way, a means, to revert back to their Natural Humanness. This way, in Time – wyrdwilling [as AL coined] – the West is given something it needs and is missing. But the ONA as a means to make adepts who are “sinisterly” [of the Left Hand] Enlightened must remain in place. The so called magian right handed religions have had 2000 years to show and prove themselves. Their end results we are experiencing today tells us that humanity and the human world in the hands and spirit of these magian religions, ethos, and methods of living are destructive to the species or at least devolutionary. There is a need and use of the Shadow Left Hand.
