LUCIDITY

I have lucid dreams often. Most of them are self induced.I learned how to do it from a book. You train your mind to question everyday reality, every waking minute, asking yourself if this is a dream, and trying to see waking life as a dream. Then it’s a matter of time. After a while, from time to time, while you are dreaming you begin to notice unusual things and question it’s possibility. That’s when you wake up inside the dream. Once “inside,” or phased into it, you learn from there. I had the strangest spontaneous lucid dream last night. A kind I had never had before, which woke me up  when it was over and got me thinking about ontology and cosmology in bed.

Before the lucid dream, I had already “woke up” inside my head. My body was going through those weird electrical waves you get when you are in borderland state and just about ready to leave your body. I “surfed” the wave of electrical surges going up and down my sleeping body, hoping to get out. I got out, but I was floating in empty blackness. Like I was in space with no stars, just floating there.

I looked around to try and find the earth or some point of reference because I was getting very frightened from the dark vertigo. I had never been inside empty space before. Then, from somewhere behind me, I heard the voice of a man’s soft gentle voice speak saying: Look…

My awareness looked down below where I was floating, and the voice asked: What do you see?

And I said: A blue grid.

The grid stretched into beyond my point of vision. I had seen this grid many times in different ways. I see it when I do that thing where I close my eyes and press them lightly. This causes lights and swirls to appear, and after while when the purple swirls subsides, this grid can be seen. The other time I saw the grid was at a friends house. My friends dad was an electrician who many these doohickeys in his garage. He made this something called a “Mind Machine” once for his son (my friend).

My friend told me to sit in an arm chair and put it on. This mind machine is just a machine that makes tones and lights at different cycles per second, to tweak your brain waves. He set the mind machine at Theta Wave, which is one from Delta – or deep sleep. I put on the flashing goggles, and the ear buds. I didn’t experience anything at first, except the annoying bleeps in my ear, and the constant flashing. My eyes were closed so I was already in Alpha wave. I don’t remember how much time past, or what happened next, but everything went silent and I saw the blue grid. I thought the machine went broke.

I was floating looking at the familiar blue grid below me, and the voice said: Look…

My awareness shifted to my left, where I saw a dozen or so holes in the grid of different sizes. Scattered in random order. Then a giant grid ball came from the right side. It was so big, it scared me, and I pulled my self back away from it very far, so that it was the size of an orange. The grid ball had its own grid that was of a different size. Its equator was on the same plane as the big grid, so that its top hemisphere was above the big grid, and it’s bottom was below.

I saw it [the ball] move towards each hole in the big grid. And from it came a blue spark. The spark budded a new grid ball in the hole, like a yeast cell budded new daughter cells. each time the original ball moved to a different hole to bud, it was connected to the daughter balls it had made. After the hole had been filled I saw the original ball ripple a wave of blue light down to its sparky tentacles to each daughter ball, and this caused the daughter balls to move apart into their own line of orbit. And they circled the original ball.

The voice behind me asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see the sun. It gave birth to the planets.

The voice said: Look…

I looked inside the sun/grid bubble, and I saw a dark sphere, and from it radiated sparks. I was looking at a plasma globe, super imposed onto the grid sun, so that I could understand.

The voice from behind asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see a coil, and plasma filaments are coming out of it, like the plasma globes.

I was confused. I knew a plasma globe needed electricity. I don’t know why; perhaps because I was dreaming; but I looked around the space for a wall socket and wires.

The voice asked from behind: What are you looking for?

I said to the voice: For the source, what does it look like?

I felt a pull, which tugged me away from the scene, and I moved far away from the grid until I was once again alone in empty darkness.

The voice behind me said: Look…

My awareness looked up and I saw a massive oval shaped grid, inside which was what looked like the Milky Way, as if the galaxy were inside a blue egg shaped Farady Cage. The grid had a circumference, from which radiated blue spokes towards the center, where I saw the grid lined curve like a funnel into the center of the galaxy.

Something moved me closer to the giant bubble, so that I could see the circumference up close. It was like blue chrome or blue quicksilver. I was fixated on the weirdness of the blue metallic color for a while, until the voice behind me said: Look…

My awareness looked at one of the spokes, and my eyes followed it, and I saw hundreds of tiny filaments or sparks coming out of each spoke. At the end of each spark was a star. I looked closer and i saw each spark and its star move in circles and oval movements. There were millions of sparks and stars, each moving.

The voice behind me asked me: What do you see?

I said to the voice: I see a grid that radiates sparks of energy that becomes stars.

I became confused again, and I looked around for this galactic grid’s source.

The voiced asked me from behind: What are you looking for?

I said: For the source…

The voice said: Look…

I saw a spark come out of the galactic grid and from the tip of that spark I saw a small ball grid, inside which was was a light that looked like a star. But this light and grid expanded, growing bigger, until it looked to me like a miniture galaxy. And I shifted my awareness around the mother galaxy to see if it had it’s own mother, and I saw a blue tether like a twisted umbilical cord come from out of the big galaxy stretch into the distant darkness and noticed another grid/galaxy at the end of the tether.

The voice behind me asked: What do you see?

I said: I see the galaxy giving birth to a new one, like I saw the sun give birth.

My fascination was then directed to that distant galaxy. I wanted to see it up close, because I had never seen another galaxy before. And in a moment I Became there, in front of that other galaxy. I looked at it for a while, with a smile on my face, and I asked the voice: Which is it?

The voice behind me answered: Andromeda.

I wondered to myself, if there was a living planet in it that I could see.

And the voice from behind said: Go, to the circumference of the grid.

I moved myself towards the circumference until I was inside. It looked like a great big indigo tunnel. I moved with the flow of the circumference and saw holes at the top and bottom, where the spokes enter the circumference. From the bottom hole; which looked like a giant manhole. I saw what looked to me like a dimly lit flow of greyish blue cigarette smoke, that cascaded upwards to the hole directly above it, like an upside down water fall of smoky light. And I was inside the smoky light which took me into one of the upper spokes of the galactic grid.

It looked like another tunnel. But this tunnel looked like swiss cheese. Each hole I figured was where one of the sparks I saw that turned into a star. Each hole was surrounded by a bright blue circle. I was mesmerized by the bright blue electric circle of one that was coming close to me above my head. And the voice from behind said: Touch…

I reach my left hand upwards for the bright blue circle and was caught up in a surge of some kind where I was pulled inside, like I was in a river that flowed very fast. I was up the shaft of the spark and I notice what it looked like up close. The voice from behind asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see a braid of two smoky filaments, twisting and spiraling, like a helix, feeding the star it is attached to.

As I got closer to the sun this filament was feeding the voice asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see a haze of blue that surrounds the sun, and the two filaments diverge, each attached to the north and south poles of this envelope. And as the filaments twist, the envelope turns with the sun inside.

From this turning envelope there were these blue lines that radiated outwards into the distance. I focused onto one of these which caught my eye, and in a moment, was surfing it’s flow. Then I came to a planet. Around the planet as the same hazy blue envelope, and the blue filament that connected it to its sun also split, ending at the envelope’s poles. I past through the smokey blue haze and saw an ozone layer, that was a bright crystal blue color, and pasted through.

When I had past through the ozone layer I felt hands on me. Hands gently holding my arms, legs, on my tummy, and holding my sides. I got frightened because I felt the hands but could not see anybody. I asked the voice: What are they?

And the voice behind me said: My hands.

I asked: How many hands do you have?

The voice said: Many.

As I was gently being brought down from the sky, I noticed the sky on this planet was a light lime green color. I then asked my invisible guide: Why is the sky green here?

And the voice answered: Why is the sky blue there?

I said to myself and the voice: I watched a show on discovery and it said there was something in the atmosphere which absorbs all the color spectrum’s frequencies, but blue, and we see that blue.

The voice from behind said to my speculations: Perhaps the same principles apply here too?

My awareness shifted to the tops of these trees that I was near, and this invisible guide; maybe sensing my focus, brought me to the tippy tops of these trees to see and asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see blue leave.

The leaves were a cool blue color, very much like these eucalyptus trees with the very dark bark we had near my how which had leave that were bluish in color.

I asked my my guide why the leaves were blue and not green here. It said to me: Why are leaves green and not blue at home?

I recalled an episode of a nature show about leaves and said to the voice: I think I remember something saying that chlorophyll was bluish in color, and that the leave back at home were actually yellow or light orange, so it makes green; so maybe the leaves here don’t have a yellow color to them?

My guide said: Perhaps so.

I got frustrated with my invisible guide and said to it: Boy, you’re not very helpful are you. How am I supposed to know if I’m getting things right or not, if you don’t tell me I’m right or wrong?

And the voice said: You don’t have to always be right Chloe to experience something. These answers will come in time.

As my guide was carrying in with its many invisible hands to the ground I suddenly realized how dumb it was that it needed to carry me in the first place. As if it didn’t have the magic or power to just levitate me to the ground. So I asked the voice: Why do you have to carry me with your hands anyways?

My invisible guide said back to me: Because you are afraid of height.

And it set me down to the ground.

My feet were bare and I was standing on these rolly blue grass, much like some I had seen back on earth. It was warm, and in the sky there were a few patches of those clouds made of ice crystals, which are my favorite type. I knelt down to touch the grass and picked a blade to smell it. I had become good enough with this lucid dreaming stuff that the imagery felt as real as waking life to me. The grass didn’t smell interesting, so I ate a piece. It has a slight taste of pepper. As I was chewing and being mindful of the odd flavor I looked to my right and became suddenly frightened because this animal was walked by.

My guide’s many hands quickly came back onto my body and pulled me away, and it calmed me. It said: What do you see?

I said: Like a brown badger, or a platypus without a beak or tail.

My awareness noticed where it was walking to. There was a beautiful lake a few yards from where I was standing, and in the distance I could see a snow capped mountain range. I had a smile on my face, as I just stood there captivated by the scenery.

After a while, I stopped and looked at the animal again, following it to the lake, and I saw something strange. The voice asked me: What do you see?

I said: I see a hazy cord or filament coming out of its head going up into the sky.

I reached back to the back of my own head, where the skull meets the neck bone to see if I had one, and I turned around; and saw that I also had one; as did all the trees.

My invisible guide asked me: What do you see Chloe?

I answered: I see we are all connected to something. Like this galaxy was a living creature, and it’s grid was it’s circulatory system. These suns and planets are like its organs; and we are inside, connected to it all.

My awareness wandered back to the lake and the animal. I walked to the lake side and knelt to taste the water with my finger. It tasted like normal water. I got up to look at the mountains, remembering those few times I went up some mountains back home with friends to go snowboarding. And I wondered about the people that lived on this planet.

I asked my guide: What do the people here look like, can you show me?

The voice behind me said: You are the only one here.

I felt sad and disappointed. Because I was thinking of maybe reincarnating as a person living here or something, when I die on earth. But since there were no people, this would not be possible.

I asked the voice: How would I come here later, if there are no people here, to come through?

My guide said: Come, it will be here waiting.

When the voice had said that, it puts it’s many hands on me again and lifted me back up into the sky. I figured it was time for me to go home.

I found myself far up in empty space. This time the space had stars in the sky. This is when my dream went weird.

My guide said to me: My friends will take us home, as you came, through the network of tunnels. Remember what you see, and write these things down for a later time.

I asked the voice: What friends?

And it said: Look…

My awareness was draw upwards, and I saw a freaking shapce ship just above us.

I said to my guide: But I don’t believe in aliens.

The voice said to me: Don’t tell them, you might offend them.

I was watching the ship move over us and was thinking to myself: And I suppose the center is going to open up and we’ll fly inside, like in the movies. But I noticed something. And the voice said to me: What do you see?

I said: I see a filament from space, going into the ship, circling it’s circumference.

We went into the flying saucer through an opening in the center.

There were these things waiting for us inside the ship. They looked like those generic grey aliens. They were mostly four feet tall. They had a head the size of mine, but a body the size of a child, and big dark eyes. They wore these blue uniforms, like a single piece jumpsuit, that looked like it was stuffed with cotton. I saw they had five thin fingers, and almost like frog skin or dolphin skin.

My guide introduced me to his friends saying: Friends, this is Chloe, Chloe these are my friends.

They waved hello, and I snickered, because it was a weird scene; but I said hello and waved back so as to not offend them.

One of the aliens took my hand and proceeded to guid me down a hallway. Not one f them seemed to be talking to me, so I asked my invisible guide: How come they don’t talk to me?

And the voice said: Because they don’t speak English. I will translate what they think.

The hallway was octagonal in shape, with soft lights coming from the sides. I looked up because I am use to seeing light bulbs on the ceiling, and we all stopped walking.

My guide said: What do you see?

I said: I see honeycombs in the ceiling. Each hexagon has a black ball at the center and is concave, but they aren’t light bulbs.

When I finished observing the honeycombs, one of the greys had brought me a cup of water with a straw in it and my guide said: My friends would like you to spray some water into the hexagons.

I filled mymouth with some water and used the straw to shoot a burst of water, trying to hit the black ball. I saw the water splash the sides of the hexagon I hit and saw drops falling oddly away from the hexagon in a swirl a clockwise swril motion, and falling regularly a foot away from the hexagon. But the drop of water directly underneath the black ball remained floating a long time, before it drifted to the side of the hexagon and swirled downwards as well.

The alien that was holding my hand looked at me, and I at him, and I saw a hurricane twisting, and I saw the eye of the hurricane calm. Then the voice asked me: What do you see?

I said: Those hexagons make a force like gravity, which swirls like a hurricane, but the area just below the source is unaffected.

We all kept walking, and we went inside what seemed to be an large elevator. Inside I asked the voice: How is this artificial gravity made?

The voice said: Look…

One of the greys made a triangle with its fingers, and another one pointed to the three points, as my guide spoke: One point is electricity, the second is magnetism, the thrid is gravity. What do you call the line between electricity and magnetism?

I said: Electromagnetism.

The voice said: What would you call the line between magnetism and gravity?

I said: Magnetogravatism?

The voice said: What do you call the line between gravity and electricity?

I said: Electrogravatism?

The elevator had stopped, and we walked outside; the grey still holding my hand. We walked into a scene that looked like it was out of a Star Wars movie, with those bridges that were suspended in the air; that Luc and Darth Vader were sword fighting on. We all walked to the side of one of these bridges. I saw giant spheres in rows, sandwiching a blue tube that hugged the curved circumference of the ship. I assumed that this tube and the giant sphere went all the way around. each ball has a cap of some sort on their north and south poles, with what looked like a lot of gold or copper wires, which were wrapped around different parts of the blue tube.

I looked at the grey who was looking at me, wondering what were inside those giant balls, and I saw images of great big crystals. As I saw the big crystals, the grey used both of his shall hands to gently squeeze my hand while looking at me, and I understood.

My guide asked me: What do you see?

I said to the voice: Those balls have big crystals inside which are being squeezed or put under pleasure. This maybe makes some kind of force that is mixed with that blue spark being drawn into the ship, and the mixed energy is caused to go around the tube in circles.

My guide said: There are networks of crystals of great size scattered underneath the earth. These crystals hold in them a living force which sustains the flesh. Flesh cannot survive long without this force. If you ever leave the earth behind to live in space or travel through it far, you must take these with you.

I faded. The scenery went hazy, and I felt very sleepy. I woke up to the usual sound of birds chirping just outside our window. Thinking about this crazy dream. I kissed Kayla, who was still asleep, and was glad to be home.

Chloe